Friday, September 28, 2007 l sighss..
Haven't been doing quite well recently, i don't know what am struggling with inside of me. so many thoughts have been coming into my mind, flaring up easily, irritated easily. what have become of me? i really don't know man.
People often see me, smiling, laming around, laughing around, making a fool out of myself.. sometimes i think i portrayed myself this way so that i can somehow emulate the bitterness inside. but yet people take me for granted or is it i took them for granted? if i did something wrong why don't you tell me? Just hope that someday, the people around would be more sensitive towards me, maybe just a lil more? i'm not asking too much right?
Sometimes i'm just so tired of being the one to cheer people up, brightening up the atmosphere, but i am human too you know, i have emotions too. Yet when i am down, who's the ones really there for me?
*Digress abit: ytd chatted with tammy but she keep forgot to reply sia! *peace* haa...
When i lose my temper..*apologies*.. can't you be more tolerant? can't you be more understanding? must you really get angry back at me and block me in msn? hAa! i feel so childish you know. but well, i'm not really affected by you surprisingly, i'm tired of all the superficial friendships, i don't really wanna care anymore. Come on man, who says christians are free of all trouble? yes i'm a christian and yes i lose my temper at times, i know it's not right and i'm still trying to become a better man. Give me time will you?
tell me, what lies behind that broken smile...?
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